1. Mental note to self.

2. Random candid Polaroid shots of Darr and Jon on the drumset jamming and Darr's stupid palm. Love shots like these - shots that capture the true essence of people.

3. Finally got my hands on these books that I've been dying to read for ages. I know I've got tonnes of other work to complete and revise...but I just can't seem to be bothered anymore. Nothing's gonna change my love for reading. Burnt a huge hole in my pocket though sigh but oh well, let's just say these are intellectual investments heh. Must stop using 'shopping' (of any sorts) as a form of therapy though, the satisfaction never lasts more than until I get out of the shop sigh. Gotta man up Xin, you can do this.

4. Celebrated Sis' birthday the night before cause Popz and Mums were flying off today. I've always thought that I can survive without their presence and all since they've been going on cruise trips very frequently these days but man... it's only been less than a day since their departure and I'm already missing them like crazy. Perhaps the distance and time and circumstances really do make a huge difference. Suddenly I feel like the weight of the world is being placed on my shoulders as the eldest in my family. The responsibility of having to take care of my siblings and even my maid is a tad too overwhelming for me...is this how it feels like to be a parent? Gosh, I'm so thankful that this is just temporal. Can't wait for them to be back already.

5. Sports carnival on Saturday. I'm so grateful for them. Through all the ups and downs especially in these two years, I thank God that I've got them with me. For listening without judging, for being there without expecting any returns, for tolerating my temperaments, for going crazy with me, for giving me a chance and being there with me as I pick myself up again. For the endless encouragements whenever I fall into those endless pits. Thank you so much for keeping me going. xoxoxo

6. Random picture taken in one of the rooms in Axis - the sunlight was brillianteeee. :)

7. Hopeless, but still hoping.



What were you waiting for...? I cannot comprehend you at all.

Right after the rain, from the 21st floor.

With Bry :)

New fringeyyy:)

The rest of the photos from the Flyer performance have got to wait. The sun's finally out. It feels good to wake up early to just have enough time to snuggle in bed a little while with my cotton sheets pulled up to my chin, listen to some soft, quiet music with the rain pouring, thunder booming and lightning flashing outside and still have enough time to finish up 2 poem analyses. Time to bathe and head to school to continue studying. First lesson's starting at 10am and the official day ends at 12pm today. Gotta love Wednesday Bs. :)
Have yourself a good day ahead. Oh and, good morning. x

And it's crazy that someone could change me
No matter what it is I have to do
I'm not afraid to try
And you need to know that you're the reason why


Well hello there, how have you been? Everything's been going a little too over the top these days. A's are in 185 days, okay actually 184, if you exclude the last 20 minutes of today. I haven't been catching up on my work and I know there's no use in complaining and whining about it so yes I'm gonna just do my best and try to fight away all the negativity and fatigue and buck my shit up. I chose to walk this way; no one forced me into it and isn't it only right that I should be responsible for it? On the other hand, band's been so hectic with the concert coming up and everything still in a mess and my own lack of confidence while playing with the whole band is really getting on my nerves. And I've become so stressed and just so strong-headed and stubborn that even my percussion tutor can't stand it anymore. 4 days of practices every week, with my piano lessons and practices, and school work... There may just be a little too much on my plate these days. But no, I won't break. I will not. I can do this. All in His name:)

Guess this is just what life turns out to be as we grow older huh? Things get so darn out of hand that sometimes you really just wish to disappear and not bother about anything at all..but because of the responsibilities you have, you don't have a choice but to stay on and continue to fight harder. Not gonna say that it's just a 'JC-thing', because with all due respect and honesty, I believe that poly students aren't having it any better than us; perhaps just in some other ways that we JC kids aren't able to experience or see. In any case, hang in there regardless of the circumstances and the things that may be distracting you or pulling you down. Free yourself from them because only then will you be able to soar without burdens. Only then will you be able to soar to those great heights.

What I'm really thankful about is just having this God whom I know is bigger than all my problems, stronger than all my fears and weaknesses and will always be there for me. I know it may sound cliche but really, thank You so much for bringing me out of my comfort zone and pushing me beyond my limits because that is really just the only way that I can grow into a better and stronger person. Thank You for keeping me sane when really I feel like I'm about to go over the edge and turn manic. You're truly wonderful, amazing. Your love never fails.

Anyway, here's just something that I read a couple of weeks ago that's still vividly recurring in my mind now and then. Thought it'd be really relevant to share it now.

"And most of all; don't play it safe. Resist the seductions of the cowardly values our society has come to prize so highly: comfort, convenience, security, predictability, control. These too, are nets. Above all, resist the fear of failure. Yes, you will make mistakes. But they will be your mistakes, not someone else's. And you will survive them, and you will know yourself better for having made them, and you will be a fuller and stronger person."

I could really go on writing about this short paragraph but gosh I'm really way too tired and I'm sure no one would even bother reading it (okay, that's if anyone even reads this space now haha). So there, here's some food for thought for you. Have a great (and really hot) night ahead. Toodles xo.

P/s: "Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the Lord's work, because you know that your labour is not in vain in the end."
~1 Corinthians 15:58

Keep heart, be strong, fight on and never give up.
And yes, smile - it confuses people.